Farewells and goodbyes

I think I'm not too good with farewells and goodbyes. I am cold to others in the beginning, but once I get close and familiar with them, I start to grow accustomed to them being around and feel that that is what it's supposed to be, with them around. I guess that means that I grow too attached to them and can't imagine or bare them being not around.

This could be the reason why I don't really like to associate with people, perhaps, to stop myself from growing too attached to them. And that could also be the reason why I can't really open up to anyone.

Perhaps, I was and am still very much a child at heart. Hidden beneath the veils of disguise and lies.

今日はまた親戚の家に行った。夕食もそこで。そういうわけで、今晩の時間はほとんどなくなった。（＞ｘ＜）

それに、今日はある人と会う予定だけど、その人はその約束を忘れたんだ！なんということ！そのせいで、今朝は無駄に早く学校に行って、ぶらぶらにしてた。本当にいややだな。

明日はまた会う予定。今度はちゃんといればいいのね。