Nearing the end

My physical training sessions are coming to an end... at least for the first part. Then there will be a test to decide if there is a need to continue on. Pass, and be discharged from the program, fail, and continue with the second part.

Honestly speaking, it's unlikely that I'll be able to make it. Which means that the second part is almost a certainty. It's not too bad, but not that good either. It's complicated.

恋愛話ってやっぱり悲しいほうがいいのかな？だってさ、すべてのことがよかったなら、見る甲斐もあんまりなくてつまらないでしょう？

でも、やっぱ悲しいことには弱いな、私。特に・・・話しに深く入るなら。

変だよね。それが人とあんまり接触しないの原因かな？わからない・・・